[The expression on her face clears at his words, something like understanding (perhaps unexpectedly) blossoming in place of that frown.]
That's what I wanted, when I came here. Instead of coming here, I was just supposed to die. My warden--he promised me that if I graduated, if I still wanted that--he'd help me find a way to die. You don't have to--I mean, I won't tell you that you have to do that, or anything. Just--the Admiral won't let you die forever, here. Even if I ask. But I--understand, at least a little.
[Another pause, again for the right words, as her weight shifts from one foot to the other, one hand lifting unconsciously to her hair, pushing loose strands behind her ear.]
I can get him to fix it. Or give you different rooms, if you want. Just, I'm not--here for a deal, or a wish, or anything. I'm here because--I've got a lot of stuff to make up for. Did a lot of things to hurt people. I don't want to hurt people anymore. Not on purpose. So.
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That's what I wanted, when I came here. Instead of coming here, I was just supposed to die. My warden--he promised me that if I graduated, if I still wanted that--he'd help me find a way to die. You don't have to--I mean, I won't tell you that you have to do that, or anything. Just--the Admiral won't let you die forever, here. Even if I ask. But I--understand, at least a little.
[Another pause, again for the right words, as her weight shifts from one foot to the other, one hand lifting unconsciously to her hair, pushing loose strands behind her ear.]
I can get him to fix it. Or give you different rooms, if you want. Just, I'm not--here for a deal, or a wish, or anything. I'm here because--I've got a lot of stuff to make up for. Did a lot of things to hurt people. I don't want to hurt people anymore. Not on purpose. So.
[The smallest of shrugs.]